They say that you learn the most about yourself and that God does most of his sanctifying work during the rough times. Enough time has passed for me to have done some reflecting about what God was teaching me during those years when my life was turned upside-down.
One of the things I learned was fearlessness. I think, before, I must have been scared of a lot of things. I was scared that I would go to the doctor and be told I had only six months to live. I was scared that one of my kids would die. I was scared that my wife would leave me. I suppose I was really hoping that I could live a charmed life and nothing bad would happen to me. If I think carefully about this attitude, I think I made an idol out of the charmed life. Deep down I didn’t trust this idol, hence the fear. When the tragedy eventually struck my idol was shown to be the fraud it was. Consequently, I’m not nearly as fearful as I used to be because I now know that God is bigger than the things I feared before and I can trust him. He was faithful, and true to his promises.